arini...eh salah..dua hari lepas..member baik aku mental x betul da tunang..a shocking story..psl dari gaya dia mmg x gaya langsung nak kawin..tup2 dua bulan lepas bleh hangout layan butter..tetiba je da nak kawin..mmg betul aa dia serius nak kawin..walaupun dia pernah ajak aku ( ko serius ke time tu ? ) tp actually dia sendiri tahu..jauh dalam diri aku...ada satu sora yg berbunyi " ko boleh memiliki ku tapi bukan hati ku "..pergh...padahal ini ayat dia..hehe thanks psl ada je menggangu aku...bile nak reload henset aku buat kali terakhir ? hantu pasir...
so..the next question is...bile lak turn aku..yg pasti aku x kan kawin dalam tempoh 6 bulan terdekat ni becuz it is totally impossible..melainkan aku jual dadah ke..kene loteri ke..tanah umah aku goverment nak amik ke..woah..tu mau cecah setengah juta kalau derang nak amik..hahhaa adake ...so insya-allah target aku next year...tp ni target je la...aku still berserah kepada ilahi..lagipun calon tu ada tp x dapat je..kekadang aku pelik kenapa org dengor aku cakap gini jadi pelik..sapa yg pelik ? pelik2..calon aku tu...sorg yg aku suka giler...bagi aku x segan nak mengaku bahwa dia banyak mempengaruhi hidup aku dlm tempoh setahun ni..biarpun sampi ke saat ini dia masih tak nak terima aku..n dari mulut dia...sampai bila2..tp ntah..aku cam malas nak cari lain...tp tipu la kalau aku cakap aku x cari..aku cari..tp feel dia x sama...i cannot love someone who i didn;t love..mungkin aura dia still ada..hook tu still strong no matter how hard aku try nak lupakan dia ( believe me i DID !!! )..mungkin ada jodoh antara aku n dia...maybe x de...psl jodoh itu ditangan tuhan..and we always know that god works in a strange way..sinikal..tp kontra disini..yg kta tahu qada n qadar itu ditangan tuhan..sejauh mana kta merancang...tp 'kun fayakun'...segala2nya mampu berubah sekelip mata...
so perancangan aku skrg ialah..stay loyal to the company...tgu masa yang sesuai utk move on..aku try apply goverment..more stabil n terjamin kind of job and in the mean time..try to focus on my band and also my sub project which begging my idea every day...
and pray hard...that one day..someone that can accept me..will show up..and if the person wasn't her..i hope that she could inspire me just like her..i want to wish that she is the one for me..but after all the attempt that i have gone through..i just want to leave this one to god's will...insya-allah...i will married..and have a happy loving family for all the intire life that i have..

will u married me ?