damm..it took about 2 hours to get here....

last night, we jamm eventhough i don't want to ditch my job for 1 hour something..persuade by the plead by Kiki to see us jamming...guess she doesn't seem to be there again..woman factor plays major again..played several song with the RP3 this time being alone without the fuzz..still like a wild horse to be tamed..maybe I need totally a day to figure it sound..

in the semi last phase of the kenari session..leaves me for the gruelling bank agenda...mind you that I tell them I've RM1600 per month as a salary..luckly I've got Fendy behind my back...need to loan him a cool RM500...


yup - yup..today is a bit boring and also out of control..

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Woah..it's been a few days late...

Life Is A Risk...i finally made up my mind whether to get a car or not...guess...I finally found a Kenari that fits my budget...which around RM350 per month..this is the early figure..haven't sign or agree any paper yet..luckly I've got few friends which help me through everything...hahaha...

My job is getting worst...for me eventually..hehehe..not ready to talk things yet coz I'm few works to jab on with..

remind me to talk about last sunday jamm...which is horrible...gtg

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my computer is being infected by Jeelo virus. The result, well every damn exe file were being removed to the quarantine section. Think I'm going to lost almost every piece of nice software. Well that spell suck for me. But yet again, I've a 120 GB hardisk in hand. We might enjoying 160 GB space. List below is the software that I will need to find & install. Talking about file management after this :-

Macromedia Dreamweaver MX
Macromedia Director MX
Macromedia Flash MX
Macromedia Fireworks MX
Adobe Photoshop CS
Adobe Illustrator CS
SwishMax
Flax
PHP
Mysql
Winzip
Realtek Sound Driver
Creative Live! SE Driver
McAfee Anti - Virus
Direct-x 9.1
Media Player 9 ( 10 sucks. can't play WMV )
Indeo Codec
DIVX
Real Player 10
Winamp 5
Sound Forge
Cute FTP
WindowsBlind
Style XP
err.....ada lagi ke ?

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RAINING DAYZ BLUEZ

it's been raining for the last 4 dayz...
and I've never felt that lonely before..
it seems weird...sometimes...I felt like a glue...

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thinking about quiting the job......if anyone offer me a better ( salary, job enviroment.....i don't feel like working.... ) job...I will take it...

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almost an hour ago, my boss threw me a nice suprise....amazingly...4 people were on free...plus i'm in the setting seeking mode...he is a bit suprise to see several PC were not on the system but the screen were unlocked..guess I'm busted..he doesn't allowed me to play the guitar while working...the pain in the butt I guess

Now I'm wondering whether I've done the right things ? yeah it is my fault but already I telling this people earlier that I don't want to work for a cyber cafe no matter the job requirement is...but you know me....

now i'm in the wrong mood....whose to blame..maybe I just the resign letter and get my butt face back to Pekan...and do some shitty job...2004 is like the worst year...I don't want it to happen in 2005..

take look at the gun and shoot a 2.5 calibre into the right point of the skull....

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Qoute :

i take this job because everyone want me to take it. Imagine i got another job offer, RM 700 per month + 3 hour per day with no living 'expenses'. Now i'm stick with this money kind of job, with only RM500 per month ( eventhough I got OT ). Plus I hate when people only want to get the advantage of me...piece of shit...

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dude it's only couple of dayz before 2004 end its dayz. And I haven't fully taste it. Imagine for the whole 1 years everything turn a bit relax for me. No love controversy, no big - suck it urlife - job, etc. Tell u the truth, I got plenty of things that should made ordinary people panic but I take things so simple it is suprising me.

Keep forgetting what the hell happen to me from January to August...I think that thing happen last year :-

accident for 3 week in a row..damn that Comel motorcycle...
get a grip back with Siti.. :-D
loose a job, get a job, loose again...
somehow I didn't understand this person...he quit just like that and pretend that he doesn't work there....
lot of lying..esp about money..
i think that's all ...i Guess !!

so today, Ujie & nizmah made a return to Kuantan. Hahahha. But I've already met them at KL. Ujie is becoming much mature than before. Maybe she is already to get married..????... :-)).....Niz maintain cambiasa....

want a guess about in the world am i doing in KL ? purchasing some really good - vintage - oh my god - effect. Digitech RP3 ( tons of fx ) and Big Muff. The muff is the biggest shocker ever. For the last 5 month, I've been dreaming about own it one. A dream is all I can do because of the price and the rarerities of it. Managed to swoop RM100 for it. RP3 ? mainly because of the whammy effect built inside it. Price ? RM500. 2 official jamming + countles of plugin the computer...brings back the result : have the potential but need lot of practise. Try to mix it with the muff plus other pedal...we still need lot of work. Take some lovely picture of it. might post it somewhere I guess.

there is a possibility that I'm off back to Kuantan. Something change inside the management....someone is going out, and once again I'm the ever reliable subsitute..

suck....

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for a week in a row, I've come to work late. I didn't get any punishment YET !!!. Guess when the person who managed everything look at my attendance card, she will shock to see the time that I've scored. Record late : 1 and half hour late. Today I've came 1 hour late. :-))....

Got not much to do ( a good reason for lazyness ) but 3 more PC down to the sick bay. Ahaks ! still haven't finish building my machine. Talking about putting 256 MB ram into a 1.3 Ghz Celeron. I think I'm going to name it PC Hantu ( Ghost PC ). I'm going to install every P2P client inside it. And resume my search of Mr Bean episode !!

Talking about P2P, I've began to sense that the reason of the slowing down of the internet is due to the Ares software that I've install 'somewhere'. Leave it with 19 download. Check it today, left only 7 to go. Cancelled those who didn't get anything at all.

This is my schedule :-
Pagi tidur - celik g keje - balik tido

now i didn't have any life at all !!!!

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internet seems have becoming my worst nightmare. imagine streamyx ( talking about broadband connection !!! ) but it looks like 56kb connection. Don't know what happen but that spells s*%t for me.

almost a week since I have started working here. Seems I'm enjoying all the works & the 'sleep'. At least 4-6 PC have problem but most of them were infected with trojan & malware which mean everything to get slower. Repair all of them but now with the net problem, I've since didn't knew what to do.....

get 2 you latter....

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wokey, I got a new job for the new year and guess what I'm back with a new cyber cafe ( 3 cafe in a year period, what a record ) but I'm sensing that my 'marriage' with this cafe will be not that long coz the school still undecided whether to carry on with the class or not. And we're talking about RM700 a month plus 3 hour only job. Oh next month I'm trying to buy myself a new car, maybe a Kancil coz my current payment with the CC is about RM600 a month, so a Kancil worth aroung 25+ a month is still affordable. Why 4 a kancil ? becoz my mother wanted me to stay at home coz she scarred about living alone inside the big house. Wait 4 the next attachment because I got a new love story to tell :-))....chiao !!!

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it's been a lot of month since my last post ( can kept up the pace la )...


so currently I'm back in Pekan, quit the jobs as the CC guys some 4-5 month ago because Mr Lobo want 2 end his practical days in a weird fashion, in the end troubled me the most but who cares !!

now i'm doing some cikgu stuff at Sekolah Intregrasi Pulau Serai but only for the end month. Still scored some RM400 which will goes directly for the new Digitech RP3 effect i'm buying from some forum guys in KL. Talk about new ?

Siti is back in the north, taking care of his brother Cyber Cafe while ujie finally back home in Sarawak. Timmy in Scotland, supposely I could sticking with him but due to yayasan pahang lack of funding, I cannot afford all the financial needy. Dzul ( photostat guy ), Pza ( GSC girl ) & rod ( computer shop sales girl ) still in Kuantan ( talk about love !! ).

I'm still trying 2 find myself a good jobs but hehehe, you know me

In the next couple of days I will be in KL & Shah Alam..wait for update babe !!

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have a chat this afternoon..talking about last night matter..suprisingly she confess that women do a bit materialistic...an answer that I doesn't want to hear...manage to talk her about having dinner tomorrow night..could I make it as my first date..or just consider it as a hang out..

I feel a bit sad today.....and the idea of leaving Malaysia for Scotland is coming back again...1 year break out could make me able to break the spell she have put on me...wish i didn't have to said that...I know that only magic and luck could help me now....hoping it will be available through mail order...

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haven't gotten some enough sleep. Thinking too much lately. Realizing that everyone is comparing me to that 'mushroom ' person. Yeah, I know that is like heaven and earth between me and him. So that mean that I've to forget above Buttercookies. Almost 90% of them thinks so. But still ( how stuborn ), I've to believe that she wasn't that materialistic girl, chasing people with looks and also cars ( ? ). I just don't know, maybe leaving for KL try to find a decent job there and try to forget everything and also every dream about her. Listening to Showbizz, try to find which are my true feeling. Because I've got confused, mad, angry, sad, happy. Just don't know which one is true. "Controlling my feelings far too long "..................am I losing the unknown battle the hard way or there still some twist anywhere....will it worth it...I'm leaving that question for some time....

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BC goes out again with her friend, that guy by the name of mushrooms, and looks like everyone is against my decision of staying loyal to her. The real question is which one is the truth and which one is a fake....I don't know...like i'm bit puzzle....the only answer lies on her hands. I cannot beat that guy, good looking, got great jobs, got cars...while I'm currently useless person except in a few department. If I trully love her and want her to be happy, then I have to let her go.....could I ?.....

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Okay, it is almost a week since I've started working at Generation Cyber Cafe. Suprisingly, I get different opinion about working here. Both negative and positive. My cousin/family didn't like it because the area aorund Jln Wong Ah Jang is a bit dangerous especially with the kind of work I do ( cashier !! ) it is already enough to put me in danger of robbery. But anyway with the customer came in and out plus my work time is from 3 - 9 pm, it is obviously that I'm safe. Most importantly, BC agree with my decision.

Talking about her makes me thinking about many things especially the business regarding this friend of her. Let said that it is some kind of threat to me. But no too serious as a previously. Last week she go out with that guy. I got totally confused, mad, sad and also panic. Most of the people that night saw me with red faces, they said that I look 'masam'. Obviously I've tried to calm myself, thinking positive tough, yet it failed. But BC try talked back to me and explain everything. Again her words is confusing me. She said that I've never failed to win her heart. And yet she seems trying to give chance. Something that I've never had for the entire 23 years of my existence. Last night, I buy her soya milk. Guess I try to win her heart in a very milky way. Anyway soya beans is best for your brain and skins.

I'm hoping for the best........and god please guide me through this rough road...

Yes, that I've trully love her....nothing gonna change my love for her....and please.....

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It's been a while since my last post here..
So its still a fresh 2004 but time do pass very fast. I've already finish my studies at IKIP and got a pass for all my papers. Next month ( 10 APril ) I will receive my cert at Hyatt Teluk Chempedak

Regarding Buttercookies issue, both of us have a mutual aggrement to stick together as a friend not as a loving friend. Trully hope that relationship will continue to a bigger step. But please not too rush ka

thats all for now

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